Many people have an illusion that this new person offers a new life, only to discover after a few years that all the old feelings and issues are there just as in the past. They didn't really change games at all, they only changed the players. Here he is not a new person and also I never want to marry him. I love my husband and children,  I loved him always, don't want to spoil the love between us with the marriage which I don't really believe in. Yes its fantasy.. I love that...

until I found you, I went for shopping,

watched movies, troubled my partner, wrote verses...

Now that I love you curled like an old mongrel,

my life lies , content, 

In you.

I crave your lips, your voice, your hair .Silent and starving, I prowl through the streets.I hunger for your sleek laugh,hunting for you, for your hot heart,I hunger for your touch Cause I need you back what's wrong with that, No I can't be without you no more.

avanennum avalude mohamayirunnu.
അവൾ അവൻ്റെ കൂടെ പോയി അയാളില്ലാത്തപ്പോഴൊക്കെ, അയാൾ അവളെ ജീവനു തുല്യം സ്നേഹിച്ചു. 
avante koode kazhiyan avalkkeppozhum kothiyayirunnu. Chuvarukalum bandhangalum ellatha lokathu avante oppam akasham nokki kadalkarayil malarnnu kidakkan aval agrahichu, divasangalolam. kalam irupathu varsham pinnokkam poyenkilennu avalagrahichu.

what a passionate moment.when he holded her hands and kissed her, she forgot everything.

aval veedineyum ayaleyum kunjungaleyum marannu.swardhyaya pennu.
pakshe avalkku ayalillathe jeevikkan kazhiyillayirunnu.athrakkaval ayaleyum kunjungaleyum snehichirunnu.enkilum aval avaneyum snehichu.
Ee natttil arundakki ee niyamangalokke? oralude koode mathram marikkuvolam kazhiyuka, allathavar cheaters..aval ee lokathe puchichu..,
ee niyamangalokke arundakki.. avalkku veruppu thonni..avan paranja pole himalayathile arayanmarkkoppom janikkan pattathathil aval dukhichu.
they can go with anybody they love after they complete one year together. what a wonderful culture.

"വീണ്ടും കാണുക എന്നൊന്നുണ്ടാവില്ല. നീ മരിച്ചതായി ഞാനും,ഞാന്‍ മരിച്ചതായി നീയും കണക്കാക്കുക. ചുംബിച്ച ചുണ്ടുകള്‍ക്ക് വിട തരിക. 

Endanu avante manazil ennariyilla, enkilum viswasam varunnilla. ithra ishtamo ennodu?
atho bharye maduthuvo. Orikkal kelkkan kothichathellam avanil ninnum kelkkunnu.
innale kanan kazhiyathathilulla avante nirasa, athavale santhoshippichu. "kazhuthe" ennu
vakkinu ithra bhangiyo aval athbhuthapettu.sometimes I’m lost for words..

conjob --one more new word.. fraud



an act or instance of lying or talking glibly to convince others or get one's way.

glibly - insincere


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Origin:
what were you up to - "What have you been doing lately?"

    = "What do you intend to do?"

                = "What are you willing to do?"